April Kirkwood first fell in love with Frankie Valli as a young farm girl in Ohio when she attended her first Four Seasons concert. For nearly a decade after, she and her family attended shows whenever the group came to their area. At age 16, Kirkwood was invited backstage and ended up in bed with Valli that night, sealing the deal on her love for him.
For the next two decades, Kirkwood traveled with Valli numerous times, often being mistaken as the one person she wished she was his wife.
But he would never marry her. Despite being raised by a group of strong women in a house filled with Pentecostal hymns & depression,
Kirkwood grappled with the rejection that affected her values, goals, and concept of what kind of man she needs to have to be happy.
Kirkwood struggled with relationships until she had a pivotal conversation with a girlfriend while sunbathing on a beach in Florida. Now Kirkland, a strong yet still fragile woman, shares insights about seldom talked about learned behaviors of lust and romance during critical adolescent times.
This relatively untouched developmental milestone is key to raising healthy daughters and to heal areas in a person’s hearts and minds that keep people stuck in repeating dissatisfying romantic commitments.
For every woman who has loved a powerful man and every woman who can’t seem to find a healthy relationship, Kirkwood, who holds two Masters degrees in counseling, has found through intense study and soul searching the right answers to questions about misplaced love.